(Skip to the next bold area if you don't want to hear anything that involves religion.)
Lately I've been Questioning life and fearing death, making for an incredibly depressing weekend. Most people don't worry about death, but it's an inevitability that we all have. Whether we get hit by a car, shot, or just die of old age, it'll happen, and there's nothing we can do but prolong the waiting for our doom.
And life is something to talk about too. We're blessed to be given such a privilege, to walk among mankind as one of mankind. But, perhaps this may not be the end, who's to say this life isn't just getting us ready for the next one, and if so, what is the next one? The afterlife haunts me in it's mysteriousness-- it's something that, no matter what, you can never determine what it is. Sure, you have your own beliefs, and I'd hate to call them into question: but I just have not gone to any sort of religion. Why? Well, I'd piss you off if I told you, unless you, like me, have no religion. But I do believe there is a higher power.
Even if the big bang was proven, somebody or something had to create everything. And, think about this, who created the being that created everything, and so on? Origins are always confusing, we try to explain it, but truth is, most of it is our imaginations, this is my opinion, don't quote me on this.
I know I shouldn't worry about death until I'm older, and I've reminded myself of this several times. But the thought keeps coming back to me, the icy cold fingers of death himself perhaps reminding me that it will all come to an end eventually.
And for goodness sake, if you think I'm suicidal, you'd be sadly mistaken-- i'm exactly the opposite of suicidal! These are my glory days, I guess...
Meanwhile...
I'm going to start RPing again, nearly every day. Unfortunately, we moved a while back, so where I put the jump drive is a mystery to me. But lately my brain has busted with ideas, resulting in a vast about of creative goodness now trying to drown me. But have no fear! The literate idiot is here!
Soon, the Oregon writing test is to come along-- I'll do my best to get it on here. The last one was from my Freshman year, I missed a year. Now i'm in my Junior year and I will not disappoint!
But about that missed year... i'll get a few random writings in to make up for it.
If anyone read the lower section and/or the upper, feel free to comment. I LOVE FEEDBACK, it tastes oddly like cinnamon buns.